Obviously there is a time where we all have to grow up, right? Of course i'm right! It happens to all of us weather we like it or not. The one thing i've noticed is that so many people dread it ... but the ones that accept it are more successful and more likely to get to the point they want to be in life than those who don't. Since writing my last entry I have been able to recognize the experiences I have had in my life that has "MADE" me grow up and accept the turning points of life.
Serving as a servant of the Lord:
The first 19 years of my life prepared me for one thing, to go out into the world has a representative of the Lord to testify of Him and call my brothers and sisters unto Him. Sounds deep doesn't it? It is! And it was really really hard! Being a teenage boy and knocking on peoples doors of all ages and telling them that what I had could change their lives and pretty much telling them that their religion was wrong was no easy task. It literally forced me to accept so many things that are out there in the world today and configured my mind to understand what it was I as an individual had to do in order to keep my life on the right path. I had to keep my intellect sharp and my mind open so I don't make any mistakes that would lead me away from the happy life I want. Because of my mission I was able to discipline my mind and my actions to become a MAN of God!
I would have to admit that when I came home from my mission, I was a different person. Although I was still Dan the Man, The Flyin' Hawaiian! I actually think I, as a person am more outgoing than I was before the mission. I am definitely more willing to try things new but the reason why I do is because Life just Started! There are so many things to experience and I don't want to miss any of it. I'm still crazy as awesome, wanting to have fun and meeting new people. Although now its more wanting to make long-term connections so that when Arielle and I are older we know who to go to for help. Before the mission all I really thought about was my appearance, now days its all about working hard, praying harder, learning lots, and earning more.
Everyone knows that when you come home from your mission, the next step is to find that special someone and get HITCHED.... and that is exactly what I did.
On May 13, (friday the 13th) 2011 I was married to my sweetheart Arielle Mecham-Haban. Yes, I expected to get married much later, but there was no way in heck I was going to wait to get married to this girl :). I knew that it was right and I knew the timing was right and I made the right choice. It has only been 6 months, but in those 6 months I have learned and grown so much! Life as a husband is a step in life that changes all perspective, choice, motive, and happiness. My life has been filled with a lot of living up to do including a lot of responsibility, and I have gone through it basically alone. This made things a lot harder doing it alone. I got through it, but how nice it would have been to have someone there. Now i have someone. Church callings, financial decisions, school, work: so many parts of my life I went through by myself and it was hard. I still have all these things to put effort toward as a married man, but this time I have someone to do it with. Its not a question if I can do or not, because with Arielle I KNOW I can. The new question is if i will live up to my calling as a husband, provider, protector, and future father to keep working and get the job done. Over all, I am a much better person mentally, spiritually, and emotionally married than I ever was!
Over all growing up as made me become more a man of God than anything else. The great thing about it is I will always know who I am and what i represent. I am Daniel Haban, on the path of growing up .... but always the person you've fallen in love with since being a kid.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
The life of a growing man... starting now!
Its been well over six months since i've updated my "blog". There is definitely been more than a few events worth writing about but they are memories that have been written in my mind and not so much on paper therefore I really don't care if I record it because it is already recorded in my mind. BUT... since there isn't one soul out there who not only follows my blog but doesn't even know my URL to find it, I'm going to turn this "Man Blog" into my own personal journal. There is only one person who knows how to find my blog and that is my beautiful wife Arielle. Arielle has been there in every step I have taken in the past 6 months and having her read it gives me no worries.
In a nut shell I just want to list everything that has happened that I think has molded me into becoming the man I am today. Obviously I wont be able to write them all down but the ones I do are turning points into my life that I think is worthy of writing down.
* Taking Arielle through the temple
I can't tell you words the emotions I experienced when I had the opportunity to take Arielle through the temple. Specifically the Gila Valley Temple! During the 6 months of dating and being engaged, one of our biggest fears was wondering if we were going to make it to the temple worthy of receiving its blessings when we get married. We made it! I promised her that i wouldn't jeopardize that part of us being together forever and it was a testimony builder for me that I was able to keep my part of the bargain. Being in the temple, and seeing my beautiful bride to be in white was the greatest feeling in the world. I will never forget the way I felt walking through the house of the Lord hand in hand right beside the one single person I love the most in this world! Here's to you sweetheart!
* Being Married and sealed to Arielle Mecham
May 13, 2011 finally came and I was once again in the temple, this time the Mesa Temple with my sweetheart to be wedded and sealed for time and all eternity. Yea Buddy!!! All family and friends fill the sealing room and we were sealed by Bro. Perkinson and it was spirit felt and spirit taught to the both of us going into this new life as eternal companions. The words he spoke and the impressions of the spirit allowed this day to be bitter sweat and rewarding knowing that I was finally sealed to the love of my life! Greatest day of my life!!!
* Moving to Texas
Only two days after being married in the temple, Arielle and I had plans on moving to Austin, Texas so that I could sell pest control for EDGE and save up some money for our new lives in Utah! Being in Texas allowed Arielle and I to spend a lot of time alone and get to know each other. Not only that but to see each other in our very highs and especially or lows. It was definitely a growing experienced, but we ended up learning A LOT about each other. Her encouragement throughout the summer allowed me to sell enough to support us throughout our entire first year in Utah and put me into the mind set that I now have a greater responsibility as not only a man, but a provider, priesthood holder, and husband. To be honest with you I love the calling and I love the one i'm doing it for. There is definitely a time where all men have to go through this and where i'm at now.... I wouldn't want to be anywhere else! We had our struggles but we got through them, we had our financial difficulties, but the Lord provided a way and we got through it. We had our differences, but we talked it over and made them our strengths. I love my wife and our time in Texas was not only necessary, but rewarding!
* Being apart for an entire month!
Being apart from your spouse... at any time... is the worst experience ever. And I highly discourage it!!! While in Texas Arielle and I decided that I would stay in Texas for a time until I sold a certain amount for us to make more money and that she would move to Utah to start school at BYU. The anticipation of her leave was difficult. I think Arielle saw me cry more times during that time than she will in our entire life time. I hated it! I didn't want her to leave one bit. But during those time I was able to realize how much she meant to me. How much love I have generated toward her since being married! I love her so much and I didn't want to be without her. The day she left I cried and cried, I didn't want to leave the airport and I didn't want to go home. It was hard, but we made it through. If it weren't for phones and skype I would have gone crazy! We had a really hard time being apart, especially with the fact that she was alone in Utah. We were apart for almost a month until I was able to sell enough and I came home to her. I drove to Arizona and my father drove up with me to Provo. Our reunion was very much needed in different ways. She was more beautiful than ever! She smile shined brighter than before her kisses sweeter than I remember. I knew my place in life was with her, next to her, close enough to kiss her and tell her to her face that I loved her! We Made it and i'm
* Utah! Finances! And Job Hunting
Never in my entire life did I think that I would have a life in Utah. I didn't want one and here I am for almost two months living in the cold and trying to figure out how to start my life all over again. I like it here... Its nice! People are super cool, the church is great and the view is beautiful. The only thing I don't like about it is that whenever you want to go and do something fun.... you have to spend money. I miss when you have to think of something to do and you go created and you had crazy fun and made awesome memories. Now a days its go somewhere to spend money and the only description you have to a memory is the name of the business you spent money at... don't like it. But on the bright side there is definitely a lot of opportunity and a great place to start your life as newlyweds. Financially... our first full month here we struggled. My paycheck wasn't as big as I thought it would be and that was our only income for the month. Courageously we made a plan, we weren't stupid about our spending and we made it.
To be honest with you there were a lot of times I wanted to give up. Especially when during the three weeks I could have worked I was sick for two of those weeks! I was upset and I almost gave up on my faith, but then there are those times when you drop down to your knees and the Lord would let you get up until you're ready to. That is what happened to me and I'm so happy!!! Extremely Happy and I love it! My relationship with my wife has become superb, my mind is clear, I have more purpose to my life, I'm motivated and on top of that I was able to qualify for two jobs! Yup DOS!!! I work at Kmart replenishing the store and I almost work as a woods craftsman at a store called Crafty Wood Cutouts! I love it and it'll bring in an extra $1000 dollars for my wife and I to live on! Blessing from the Lord.... I definitely think so!
And now here I am, a married man looking for a start to begin my life as a leader, provider, and lover! I hope to be consistent with this journal and hope to have lots of things to write about in this new life I have of Happiness, Direction, the Lord, and of course my beautiful wife! :D Life is good, make it better!
In a nut shell I just want to list everything that has happened that I think has molded me into becoming the man I am today. Obviously I wont be able to write them all down but the ones I do are turning points into my life that I think is worthy of writing down.
* Taking Arielle through the temple
I can't tell you words the emotions I experienced when I had the opportunity to take Arielle through the temple. Specifically the Gila Valley Temple! During the 6 months of dating and being engaged, one of our biggest fears was wondering if we were going to make it to the temple worthy of receiving its blessings when we get married. We made it! I promised her that i wouldn't jeopardize that part of us being together forever and it was a testimony builder for me that I was able to keep my part of the bargain. Being in the temple, and seeing my beautiful bride to be in white was the greatest feeling in the world. I will never forget the way I felt walking through the house of the Lord hand in hand right beside the one single person I love the most in this world! Here's to you sweetheart!
* Being Married and sealed to Arielle Mecham
May 13, 2011 finally came and I was once again in the temple, this time the Mesa Temple with my sweetheart to be wedded and sealed for time and all eternity. Yea Buddy!!! All family and friends fill the sealing room and we were sealed by Bro. Perkinson and it was spirit felt and spirit taught to the both of us going into this new life as eternal companions. The words he spoke and the impressions of the spirit allowed this day to be bitter sweat and rewarding knowing that I was finally sealed to the love of my life! Greatest day of my life!!!
* Moving to Texas
Only two days after being married in the temple, Arielle and I had plans on moving to Austin, Texas so that I could sell pest control for EDGE and save up some money for our new lives in Utah! Being in Texas allowed Arielle and I to spend a lot of time alone and get to know each other. Not only that but to see each other in our very highs and especially or lows. It was definitely a growing experienced, but we ended up learning A LOT about each other. Her encouragement throughout the summer allowed me to sell enough to support us throughout our entire first year in Utah and put me into the mind set that I now have a greater responsibility as not only a man, but a provider, priesthood holder, and husband. To be honest with you I love the calling and I love the one i'm doing it for. There is definitely a time where all men have to go through this and where i'm at now.... I wouldn't want to be anywhere else! We had our struggles but we got through them, we had our financial difficulties, but the Lord provided a way and we got through it. We had our differences, but we talked it over and made them our strengths. I love my wife and our time in Texas was not only necessary, but rewarding!
* Being apart for an entire month!
Being apart from your spouse... at any time... is the worst experience ever. And I highly discourage it!!! While in Texas Arielle and I decided that I would stay in Texas for a time until I sold a certain amount for us to make more money and that she would move to Utah to start school at BYU. The anticipation of her leave was difficult. I think Arielle saw me cry more times during that time than she will in our entire life time. I hated it! I didn't want her to leave one bit. But during those time I was able to realize how much she meant to me. How much love I have generated toward her since being married! I love her so much and I didn't want to be without her. The day she left I cried and cried, I didn't want to leave the airport and I didn't want to go home. It was hard, but we made it through. If it weren't for phones and skype I would have gone crazy! We had a really hard time being apart, especially with the fact that she was alone in Utah. We were apart for almost a month until I was able to sell enough and I came home to her. I drove to Arizona and my father drove up with me to Provo. Our reunion was very much needed in different ways. She was more beautiful than ever! She smile shined brighter than before her kisses sweeter than I remember. I knew my place in life was with her, next to her, close enough to kiss her and tell her to her face that I loved her! We Made it and i'm
* Utah! Finances! And Job Hunting
Never in my entire life did I think that I would have a life in Utah. I didn't want one and here I am for almost two months living in the cold and trying to figure out how to start my life all over again. I like it here... Its nice! People are super cool, the church is great and the view is beautiful. The only thing I don't like about it is that whenever you want to go and do something fun.... you have to spend money. I miss when you have to think of something to do and you go created and you had crazy fun and made awesome memories. Now a days its go somewhere to spend money and the only description you have to a memory is the name of the business you spent money at... don't like it. But on the bright side there is definitely a lot of opportunity and a great place to start your life as newlyweds. Financially... our first full month here we struggled. My paycheck wasn't as big as I thought it would be and that was our only income for the month. Courageously we made a plan, we weren't stupid about our spending and we made it.
To be honest with you there were a lot of times I wanted to give up. Especially when during the three weeks I could have worked I was sick for two of those weeks! I was upset and I almost gave up on my faith, but then there are those times when you drop down to your knees and the Lord would let you get up until you're ready to. That is what happened to me and I'm so happy!!! Extremely Happy and I love it! My relationship with my wife has become superb, my mind is clear, I have more purpose to my life, I'm motivated and on top of that I was able to qualify for two jobs! Yup DOS!!! I work at Kmart replenishing the store and I almost work as a woods craftsman at a store called Crafty Wood Cutouts! I love it and it'll bring in an extra $1000 dollars for my wife and I to live on! Blessing from the Lord.... I definitely think so!
And now here I am, a married man looking for a start to begin my life as a leader, provider, and lover! I hope to be consistent with this journal and hope to have lots of things to write about in this new life I have of Happiness, Direction, the Lord, and of course my beautiful wife! :D Life is good, make it better!
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Sometimes ... I hate myself!
Dear Dan, You were a total ass today. Hate, Yourself!
Thats how i kinda feel right now as i'm about to end a night that could have been absolutely wonderful. Why didn't it turn out the way i wish it did or the way it should have? Because i was a total ass to someone i absolutely love and adore, my girlfriend! I can't tell you the type of person she is and the type of person she makes me feel! She is so sweet and caring and has been amazing to me the past few weeks. I could go on forever talking about all the good things about her and why i fell in love with this wonderful person, but the only thing that is running through my mind is how i treated her tonight. I said something that was absolutely uncalled for. I said something that may or may not be a negative to her or to anyone. But what i said made it seemed that she was classified as a type of person she isn't. As i think about it i finally realized what I've done. I hurt her feelings. I pierced her emotions and i may have made her questioned her feelings for me :( I'm an idiot. If there was one person in my entire life that has made me happier, smarter, more out going, more willing, more disciplined, flat out has brought the best out of me in every aspect .... and who could make me fall in love with them, then its her! Its Arielle Mecham. And its because of this fact that i have these feeling about her that really makes me sick to my stomach that i would do this to her. She doesn't deserve that and she never will. If anything i am in debt to her for so much that she has done for me. Well now i'm gonna give it back!
I didn't get a kiss goodbye, we didn't even share an "i love you!" and its because i didn't deserve to hear it from her. Not one bit! I deserve every sense of hatred, anger and/or "courage" (spanish word) that she had built up after saying what i said. What she did ask was for me to change it, and fix it .... at first i didn't know what on earth i was going to do to fix this one, what i was going to do to change it all. Whatever it is i need to do to fix it, and change "ME", i'm going to do it. And as scared as she may get or she may be in this relationship, Im in love with her! And until she has a damn good reason to break up with me or the Lord tells her that i'm not the one and no one else, I'm hers!!! All i can do is LET IT GO! Because i'm hers, i want to be hers and i hope she wants to be mine. This means that shes only going to get the best. Shes going to be happy every minute shes with me. I'm gonna put a smile on her face every moment i'm with her! I'm going to make sure that she knows shes safe with me and that nothing will ever happen to her. I'll never let her forget that i love her! That shes the person that makes me want to be more like Christ. There isn't more that i could ask for in a woman, its all in the one i love now. So heres to you Arielle ......... Heres to me running with you! Giving 100% every day were together. Making you feel like the queen you really are. Allowing you to know that i am absolutely in love with the most BEAUTIFUL AND GORGEOUS AND SWEETEST girl i have ever met in my entire life! I'm yours baby ... and i wouldn't have it any other way.
Thats how i kinda feel right now as i'm about to end a night that could have been absolutely wonderful. Why didn't it turn out the way i wish it did or the way it should have? Because i was a total ass to someone i absolutely love and adore, my girlfriend! I can't tell you the type of person she is and the type of person she makes me feel! She is so sweet and caring and has been amazing to me the past few weeks. I could go on forever talking about all the good things about her and why i fell in love with this wonderful person, but the only thing that is running through my mind is how i treated her tonight. I said something that was absolutely uncalled for. I said something that may or may not be a negative to her or to anyone. But what i said made it seemed that she was classified as a type of person she isn't. As i think about it i finally realized what I've done. I hurt her feelings. I pierced her emotions and i may have made her questioned her feelings for me :( I'm an idiot. If there was one person in my entire life that has made me happier, smarter, more out going, more willing, more disciplined, flat out has brought the best out of me in every aspect .... and who could make me fall in love with them, then its her! Its Arielle Mecham. And its because of this fact that i have these feeling about her that really makes me sick to my stomach that i would do this to her. She doesn't deserve that and she never will. If anything i am in debt to her for so much that she has done for me. Well now i'm gonna give it back!
I didn't get a kiss goodbye, we didn't even share an "i love you!" and its because i didn't deserve to hear it from her. Not one bit! I deserve every sense of hatred, anger and/or "courage" (spanish word) that she had built up after saying what i said. What she did ask was for me to change it, and fix it .... at first i didn't know what on earth i was going to do to fix this one, what i was going to do to change it all. Whatever it is i need to do to fix it, and change "ME", i'm going to do it. And as scared as she may get or she may be in this relationship, Im in love with her! And until she has a damn good reason to break up with me or the Lord tells her that i'm not the one and no one else, I'm hers!!! All i can do is LET IT GO! Because i'm hers, i want to be hers and i hope she wants to be mine. This means that shes only going to get the best. Shes going to be happy every minute shes with me. I'm gonna put a smile on her face every moment i'm with her! I'm going to make sure that she knows shes safe with me and that nothing will ever happen to her. I'll never let her forget that i love her! That shes the person that makes me want to be more like Christ. There isn't more that i could ask for in a woman, its all in the one i love now. So heres to you Arielle ......... Heres to me running with you! Giving 100% every day were together. Making you feel like the queen you really are. Allowing you to know that i am absolutely in love with the most BEAUTIFUL AND GORGEOUS AND SWEETEST girl i have ever met in my entire life! I'm yours baby ... and i wouldn't have it any other way.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Best Things Ever and Why: A little bit about "ME"
Last night really sucked for me and it really brought me down to a point where i didn't want to have any contact with one single person ... including my wonderful girlfriend! Sad story i know, good think it didn't last all day because i don't have the will power to put myself through such torture. Seriously though, I did not want to be around anyone all day. The reason being is because i went to bed at 3:30 in the morning because of some negative thoughts that came to my mind and couldn't get rid of. Waking up this morning was a joke because i really wanted to take my rifle and shoot the first Mexican i saw. So ... i realize this post is super negative so I'm gonna talk about what made it a little bit better.
I titled it the best things ever because today the only thing that really could put me in a good mood was thinking about all the fun recreational activities i use to do how it made me feel. Obviously i can't do all of them now because i don't have the time nor the money but looking back at everything i use to do and the rush it gave my life ... those things were the BEST THINGS EVER!
1. HUNTING: My greatest past time is waking up early in the morning well before the sun comes up, grabbing a quick pastry for breakfast, dressing up in warm camo, grabbing my gear, jumping in my truck and heading out to the great outdoors and being able to see the sun rise with all sorts of wildlife roaming around you. Words seriously cannot describe how peaceful and at times spiritual it is being out there that early and enjoying what you've just surrounded yourself with. And of course there's the whole "killing the animals" ordeal about hunting. If only everyone could have that experience of actually acting as a predator and understanding the pattern of an actual animal in order to make a kill. There's the terrain, the timing, the elevation, tracking, stalking, scouting, feeding, bedding, source of water, the smell, the vision. Not only that but the time you have to train in order to hike almost 15 miles a day in the mountains. And there will always be the rush of making eye contact with the one your hunting, and making sure your every move is perfect! Your heart starts beating, your adrenaline starts pumping through your veins. Your breathing so hard its hard to make the next move, but you have to! Then the moment of truth when you have the animal in your sights and your shaking! You take that last DEEP BREATH to keep you from moving and finally pull the trigger not knowing if you hit it or not. You wait and you wait and you wait until you start moving to check if theres blood. You see blood, but its until you have that dead animal in your sight when you can finally say, "Hell ya!"
3. MOUNTAIN BIKING: Obviously this isn't me in this picture and of course its not in Arizona. It isn't me because well, i'm taking the picture. And were not in Arizona because Breck and I are in Ogden, Utah our senior year to ride for a week. So why is Mt. Biking amazing? It because once again ... 1. your outside and 2. its another activity to test your physical endurance. Okay so ... your looking at a mountain range and you say to yourself "i can do that!" You jump on your bike and you reach the first hill and .... FAIL! YOU SUCKS! You turn around and go home. Biking is so much fun going down hill, but you gotta go up before you go down. TONTOS! You train and train and you go back and you dominate all the hills and then next thing you know your at the top of the mountain looking over the valley, slipping agua (water) from your camelback, and chewing on an energy bar and say, "Thats right mountain, i just dominated your sorry a$$!" Down hill is always fun! I personally like the 5 foot drop offs and the sharp turns with the high lips that practically allow you to be parallel with the ground instead of perpendicular. Going down hill so fast that you eyes start to tear and then the next thing you know you are at your truck and you just finished a full body workout and you burned some fat! WICKED! Now your in shape and you gave yourself a little confidence boost. LETS GO RIDIN'!!! :)
few more ... this is fun. I hate you for this Abbie!
Actually i change my mind. Thats enough for now maybe i'll continue with it next time. They are fun though i promise! If you want to find out i'll take anyone sometime. Just dont laugh super loud when were hunting .... The aminals get pissed off and wont come play :) jk babe. Chao!
I titled it the best things ever because today the only thing that really could put me in a good mood was thinking about all the fun recreational activities i use to do how it made me feel. Obviously i can't do all of them now because i don't have the time nor the money but looking back at everything i use to do and the rush it gave my life ... those things were the BEST THINGS EVER!
2. SPORTS: What more can i say? I'm an athlete. I'm super competitive and i'm motivated by winning. I know what your thinking, "What a dumb jock! Thinks he is so much better then everyone else just because he can maneuver a ball." It really isn't that at all. Sports to me was a way for me to push MYSELF to reach a potential and if i lost it was because the other guy trained harder then i did. I love to train! I love pushing myself to my limits and realizing the progress i'm making. Makes you feel like a champion, seriously! Knowing that your in top shape, your healthy, and you'd be okay in times of physical needs. When it came to an actual competition i always loved being looked down upon and after a "W" looking at them and thinking, "We're (or I'm) Strong, Faster, Better, and more disciplined then you are and i just proved it! LOVE IT!!! Not to mention all this training allows you to have a pretty good looking body :) Right Arielle and Abbie!?!?
* The top picture is when i was awarded my two varsity Letterman as a freshman in soccer and volleyball. And the bottom picture was one of my takes when i was voted most athletic for senior best.
few more ... this is fun. I hate you for this Abbie!
Actually i change my mind. Thats enough for now maybe i'll continue with it next time. They are fun though i promise! If you want to find out i'll take anyone sometime. Just dont laugh super loud when were hunting .... The aminals get pissed off and wont come play :) jk babe. Chao!
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